Post #9 The blues :-(

When I started this blog I wanted to document everything that happened and everything that I felt. I'm not sure how much I have written about my true feelings. During this whole journey I have felt a lot of frustration and a few accomplishments. Last week a new feeling over came me. I started to feel down, just sad. Every day the feeling got worst. I finally broke down and cried.  Why was I feeling so down? Well my first though was that I am a 24 year old active girl who has now lived on the couch for over a month. I barely get out of the house, and when I do I get exhausted quickly. In Oregon we have dark winters. The weather has been getting nicer and nicer, and all I've gotten to do is admire it from the window. I just want to HIKE!

Well I had myself a little break down, and then my Dad (who is still taking care of me) took me out for a country drive, which immediately made me feel better. Several friends came over Friday to craft with me and then another friend took me on a historic drive that went past several beautiful waterfalls. All of this helped my mood and I am back to feeling like myself again. I am glad I feel better now, but for anyone else going through this- know that at some point during the journey you may come across those dark days.  It's hard, but it'll past.

This drive really changed my mood. Doing a small hike to the falls felt amazing.

On a lighter note, I've been in pain. Is that "on a lighter note"? Yes the sharp pain on the inside of my knee came back last week. The pain was tolerable for the most part, but even sharper pain would join in on the fun every so often. Medicine is not helping. Which is odd. The only thing that has helped it is ice, but I can't keep ice on my knee forever.

I told my physical therapist about it. I was concerned that it might hinder my PT appointment. She is going to call my doctor to make sure that this is normal and if there is anything else that we can do. However, even though it is way more painful than it has been in the last two weeks my range in motion has improved! I got to eighty degrees today! Almost ninety, which is the farthest the doc will let me bend at this point in time. And my quad muscle is back to normal. I don't have to concentrate when contracting the muscle anymore. Although that is great, I have lost A LOT of muscle in my thigh. Now that the quad is working again, I have to work on getting ALL my muscle tone back.